I am sad. Actually, sad doesn't really approach it. I have cried more in the past six weeks than I have in a long, long time.
But I have decided that it's okay to admit this, and probably detrimental not to.
I am sad, disappointed to my core, I feel betrayed, and I am really starting to question my judgment. Because if you looked closely at my life-- or if I let you-- you would probably agree that my judgment absolutely sucks.
Wow.
I have wasted so much time. So much.
I am 40 now. I don't really have the energy or elasticity to bounce back from things like this anymore. I can see cracks in the rubberband, little cracks that no amount of care or lubrication can repair. If I am asked to stretch, if I am asked to reach around or hold anything, I am going to break.
I am not completely sure what that break looks like, but I am pretty sure it feels like this.
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I'm not going to give you a pep talk, because I have no idea what happened to put you in such a funk.
ReplyDeleteKnow, however, that your voice has been heard and I (as well as a lot of people) are hear for you.
Good luck.
Much love.
Missy
(Gah...I don't know why I can't let it go. HERE for you, not hear.)
ReplyDeleteHugs!!!
What in the bloody hell is going on, girl?
ReplyDeleteI have an open ear for you if you need someone to talk to!
SMOOSH
I am impressed that nobody made a reach-around joke.
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